Hands.

I really never thought that i would ever cry so much in public.
Bre and i literally sat on a bench at the bpm balling our eyes out listening to the same exact song that we listened to while i cryed on her sholder the first time she ever stayed the night. I actually have my bestfriend back and i couldnt be happier. I left her once, and im not going to let it happen again. Things are going back tohow they were, and i am sothankful for that. I honestly have everything i could ever ask for right now, i have the most amazing boyfriend who im absolutly in love with and the most perfect bestfriend anybody could ever ask for.
You can pretty much say i have it all. <3 :)


Im really confident that things with vince and i are going to be alot better. After friday night, standing outside for 3 hours talking to chris, i came to a huge realization and i honestly CANT loose vince. No matter what he was to ever do to me, i would never break up with him. Im not going to lie, the things he said to me really fucking hurt but i took it and i let it happen because i get that he says things when hes mad that he really doesnt mean. Yeah tell me i have no respect for myself, I could really care less.
I really appreciate chris, he sat there with me and listened to me vent my feelings about everything and he actually understood. From now on i have that kids back no matter what. Hes a good person.


So i guess my padree is planning on moving soon. Im hopeing to move in with karah and get a job down here, but if that doesnt work out then im going ot pasadena also. Its a bummer but im going to do whatever i can to keep my relationship with vince strong, and bre also because im just starting to get her back and im not just going to move away and let it happen all over again.
Im hopeing for the best, but prepairing for the worst. We'll see how things go.