So much has been going on and all I can say is;

I wish I stood up for myself sooner.
I wish he realized what was going on sooner.
I wish I would have listened to people sooner.
I wish I would have given time for myself sooner.
I wish I could promise things will get better.
I wish he knew before, how he treated me would effect us.
I wish things were different.


Confusion and frustraion is all I feel now and days.
I don't want to hurt anymore, and I don't want him to hurt anymore.


What do you do when everything you have come accustomed too changes and nothing is how it was supposed to be?
When you doubt all the plans you've mad for the future.
When you don't even know if being with the person you love more than anyone, who you put before yourself for so long, is the right thing anymore?

Vincent I love you with all of my heart and I know you know that and so does everybody else, and I'm sorry for everything.
I hope you do change, and I hope you do realize what happened to us.
But above all you will always be my bestfriend, through thick and thin, remember?